New Year

It is 28th December and this year is coming to an end. There is excitement in the air; people are out partying and what not. I don't understand what are they celebrating? This year will end, the next will start. Big deal. Is there real progress that has been made? Has the world changed? Have people around us evolved? Better question would be... Have we changed?


My second semester as a law student began in January 2013, since it was the second semester people had formed groups and there was a sense of (pseudo)belongingness. This feeling hasn't changed much. People at college still suck. I have just learned to suck it up. And luckily for me I am good at maintaining superficial relationships. That is how it is at my college. I talk to everyone, I am nice to everyone. Basically, I have a lot of 'friends'.


As for the so called society, people are still narrow-minded. It is all the same. Newspaper is still filled with numerous murders being committed, women being raped, children being kidnapped etc etc etc. How we survive through all this always seems to surprise me.


As for me, I have changed but not much. I have become a bit more cynical, less trusting, and more opinionated and an extreme sexist.


Wonder what this New Year will bring?


Will it be any different than 2013?


Anyway, I hope you all have an amazing year. I hope you all get what you want. I hope everyone ends up happy. (The cynic in me doubts that it will ever happen, but well!)
Enjoy anyway :)

Sinned

Hey there folks!!

So, it has been ages since my last post. And for that I apologize. It is just that exams were going on and I was neck deep in them. Anyway, they get over on 19th December. So, now I am a free bird till 6th January. :)

Sinned

I sat all alone in the dark, waiting for it to start. It had been five months, three weeks and eighteen hours. Time seemed to drag; each passing second brought me closer to my end. Their beginning.

I had waited for a long time for this. In the beginning I had tried to run away, had even attempted to kill myself. All was in vain; I couldn't run away, I couldn't stop it. It was all written in stone and was as inevitable as the rising of the sun. The power was not in my hands anymore. 

It was all because I had sinned. My sin was dreaming, dreaming for a better and a free world. All I wanted was to break their clutches and to fly off and start afresh. But it was not something I could escape from. Now, the only thing left for me to do was to accept this, accept my fate and embrace what they had in store for me.




I guess this has been my shortest story so far. Anyway, enjoy guys! Hope you have an amazing winter :*

Bookity Bookity Books!!

Hey there :)


So, I just finished reading the 'Silver Lining Playbook' a couple of days back and I've got only one word for it... Terrible! God!!


I am a voracious reader who is super passionate about books. I have never left a book in the middle and this time I really felt like doing it. I don't know how but somehow I got through it. Picking up that book was a mistake, definitely not my type.


To get over SLP I picked up a James Rollins book. And let me tell you... Science fiction is also not my thing. It is so difficult to find a good book these days. Sheesh. Soooo... I am back to good old Jodi, my favorite author. I have started reading Vanishing Acts by Jodi Picoult. So far, so good.


I just pity the people who haven't experienced the joy of reading. That feeling of getting lost in a book. Gosh. If books were a guy I'd so marry him!! (I am an anti-relationship/marriage person)


I may be an extrovert but I prefer books to people any day. A cup of hot coffee, a quiet place and a book. Ain't that heaven?


And what sucks most is when you finish a REALLY good book. You feel all empty and lost. Ugh.



Anyway, I would get back to reading now :)


P.s. I would love to own a room like the one below someday!

I would love to own a room like this someday :')

Perfect Match

Hey amigos!!


I am super happy today!! Because my blog has had 400 Page views. I know it is not much but to me it is a lot!! ^_^


Anyway, I had written this short story a couple of months ago. And here it goes...

        

                                                               'Perfect Match'

The golden fingers of the sun crept through the window waking him up with a gentle caress. 

It had been decided. Today was the day. Calling it the biggest day of his life would be an understatement. Everything around him was going to change, it was in the air. He could feel it with every breath that he took. 

The stress, the tension... It was all gone. The weight of the world seemed to have finally lifted from his shoulders. He was ecstatic, for a match had been found. 

A perfect match. 

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

The sun rose beautifully across the sky marking a new day and possibly her last. 

Everything had been perfect. She was perfect. Her life was perfect. There was just one problem. It was too perfect. And this was the perfect time for life to strike. 

When you are on top of the world, life always has to push you down. It breaks that 'bubble of perfect', that 'bubble of happiness'. And that is what happened to her.

She had been found. She had tried to make a run for it, she had tried to hide but all was in vain. You can never truly run away from your past. Now, it just stood in front of her, towering over her. She was cornered with nowhere to run, nowhere to hide. Life had a beautiful way of being cruel.

It had started when she was mere four months old. Defenseless, vulnerable and weak. So weak. Her family found out about the abominable thing that she was carrying inside her. She was abandoned immediately. It wasn't her fault; it was completely out of her control.

At that time, they didn't realize how valuable she actually was. They never considered the possibility that they might require her, that they might need her.

After few years her importance came to light... And the search began. Not because they repented their decision. But because her worth was realized. 

She was a match. 


A perfect match. 

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I hope you guys enjoyed it. Till next time :)

Scratch It Off!

Hey amigos!!

So, I skipped college today because I wasn't feeling well. While surfing the internet I found something interesting. It is the scratch off challenge!!

So, here it goes...

Scratch Off  the things that hold true for you. 


Appearance
I have/had piercings besides the ears.
I want piercings besides the ears (Always wanted a naval piercing!)
I have many scars. (Being klutzy sucks!)
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different color. (Blue streaks!)
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.
I want a tattoo. (A pretty little star on my wrist!)
I can be self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/had braces.
I have more than two piercings.

Embarrassment
Disney movies still make me cry.
I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
I’ve glued my hand to something.
I’ve laughed until some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I’ve had my pants rip in public.
I’ve touched something sharp/hot/etc to see if it would hurt. (What? I was a curious child!)

Health

I’ve gotten stitches.
I’ve broken or dislocated a bone.(Dislocated my shoulder when I was about 4!)
I’ve had my tonsils removed.
I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
I’ve had chicken pox.
I've had malaria.
I've had typhoid.
I've had jaundice.

Travel
I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve been to US.
I’ve been to Europe.
I've been to at least one other country.
I've never been out of my country.
I’ve driven/ridden over 200 kilometers in one day. 

Experiences
I’ve gotten lost in my city.
I’ve seen a shooting star.
I’ve wished on a shooting star.
I’ve seen a meteor shower.
I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator. (Love doing that! :P)
I’ve slapped someone.
I’ve kissed someone underwater.
I’ve chugged something.
I’ve crashed a car.
I’ve been skiing.
I’ve been in a musical.
I’ve auditioned for something.
I’ve been on stage.
I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
I’ve pranked someone.
I’ve ridden in a taxi. 

Honesty / Crime
I’ve been threatened to be arrested.
I’ve broken a law.
I’ve done something I promised someone I wouldn’t.
I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.

I’ve sneaked out.
I’ve lied about my whereabouts.
I’ve cheated while playing a game.

I’ve been in a fist fight.

Death
I’m afraid of dying.
I hate funerals.
I’ve seen someone/something die.
Someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide.
I have attempted suicide.
I’ve thought about suicide before.
I’ve written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
I own over 10 music CDs.
I own over 10 novels.
I own over 5 electronic gadgets.
I’m obsessed with anime/manga.
I collected comic books.(Wayyy back!)
I own a lot of makeup. (Hardly ever use it though)
I own gaming console(s).
I own a car.
I own a bike.
I thrive on compliments.
I thrive on hate.(Yes, I am weird that way)
Random
I can sing low key.
I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
I open up to others easily. (Never!)
I watch the news occasionally or always.
I like to kill bugs.
I sing in the shower.
I’m a morning person.
I’m a sports fanatic.
I twirl my hair.
I care about grammar.
I love spam.
I’ve copied more than 30 CDs in a day.
I bake well.
My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, blue, red, black, purple, or orange.
I would wear pajamas to school.
I like Martha Stewart.
I laugh at my own jokes.
I eat fast food weekly.
I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
I can’t sleep if there’s a bug/insect in the room.
I’m really ticklish.
I like chocolate.
I bite my nails.
I’m good at remembering names.
I’m good at remembering dates.
My memory sucks. (just during exams!)
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (I have a slight idea)

People

used to ask if I was anorexic/bulimic. (my friends still continue to call me that :/ ) 
called me fat.
say I’m skinny.
have said I’m ugly.
have said I’m pretty.
have spread rumors about me.
force me to eat. 
say I eat too much.
say I eat too little. (I wish they would stop saying that!)
say I eat too fast.
say I eat too slow.
have called me a genius.
have given me gifts.

Eating

I’ve lost weight.
I’ve gained weight.
I’m at my thinnest. (40 kgs!)
I’m at my biggest.
I’ve lost weight, but gained it back.
My weight affects my mood. A lot.
I diet.
I’m vegan/vegetarian.
I exercise.(Occasionaly)
I’ve fainted from exhaustion.

Family
I’ve sworn at my parents.(In front of them though :P)

I’ve planned to run away from home before.
I’ve run away from home.
My biological parents are together. 

I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want kids. 

I’ve had kids.
I’ve lost a child.

Sexuality
I’m a cuddler.
I’ve been kissed in the rain.
I’ve hugged a stranger.
I’ve kissed a stranger.

Bad times
I regularly drink.
I can’t swallow pills.
I can swallow numerous pills at a time without difficulty.
I’ve been diagnosed with depression at some point.
I have/had anxiety problems.(Only during exams)
I shut others out when I’m upset.

I don’t have anyone to talk to when I’m upset. (Only cause I shut others out)
I have taken/take anti-depressants.
I’ve slept an entire day before.I’ve plotted revenge.




Yes, I am 19 years old. Yes, I am doing law. Yes, I realize how juvenile and silly this was. Yes, this is a very annoying way of writing.

Sorry :D

So, now you know more about me! Hope you enjoyed it. 

P.s. I am sorry for the display. Don't know why it is all weird. 

Happiness

I have been talking to a friend of mine who went through something crappy. And she has been very upset for a really long time because of that. She seems to have lost her will to smile. Okay, so almost everyone goes through something or the other. Her, you, me. Everyone. Few of us are lucky enough to get over problems easily that is they either suck it up or solve it. Some put up a brave face while others just fall apart and give up.

Basically, how is it possible for some people to smile even when everything seems to be falling apart?

How is it possible to have hope when everything seems lost?

Is it really possible to follow 'however long the night, dawn will break' philosophy? 

How is it possible to be happy forever?

Is it possible?

Definitely not. But what is possible is to change your outlook towards things.

What people have forgotten is that happiness is not permanent, it is a temporary thing. It is not the main thing in our life. Being content is the main thing. Being satisfied is the main thing. Satisfied and content with what you have, with who you've got.

There is an act that I have to study as a part of this semester's syllabus, 'The Sale Of Goods Act, 1930'. I won't go deep in law but there is a section which defines 'condition' and 'warranty'. Condition is the main part of a contract while warranty is a subsidiary part of the contract. If somebody doesn't fulfil the condition the contract can be repudiated, but in case of warranty the contract continues to exist and can't be repudiated.

Basically, if life is a contract then happiness is the warranty. It is essential but it is not the main part. You can't go 'I give up!' or 'I suck!' or 'You suck!' and 'I can't be happy anymore'. You need to realize that no matter what happens, the contract still exists and can't be repudiated. Life goes on. Nothing lasts forever, not even sadness. You can't truly appreciate happiness, if you haven't seen sadness. And, I think the moment you realize that, you can overcome anything. 

Life is too short to be anything but happy! So, relax. Don't over think(Ironic that I am saying it cause I am the queen of over thinking :P). No matter what you think, everything will be okay. If not today, then tomorrow. But, it will be fine. So just smile and be happy :D

Taken

I just came back home after attending an event at college. It was fun performing in one of the cultural events. I was really nervous before going up on the stage. My hands were shaking and the crowd wasn't helping at all. Everything turned out to be okay in the end though. Phew!

Before the event I had a lot of spare time. So I ended up writing another short story. This time I have a title for it, 'Taken'. It is not related to the previous one though. So, here it goes!

  TAKEN

Do you know how it feels to have your hands tied by the circumstances? Do you know how it feels to be helpless? Do you know how it feels to be so strong yet not be able to do anything? 

Do you?

I think not.

But I'll tell you how it feels.

This is my story. It wasn't all bad. I was a happy person, cheerful even. I had everything that a person could ask for, a family, a roof to live under, money to sustain us and love. I was content. I was at  peace. But as always, there is dirt on the cleanest of things. Everybody has skeletons, it is all about hiding them. I had a secret, a secret so dark it could destroy everything that I had built. It could also destroy who I called my family, the people that I loved, my mother, my father, my little sister. Only if they knew.

Everything changed on that fateful day of November. We lived near the countryside, it was beautiful and a peaceful place. It was a perfect place for someone with a past like me, a perfect place to start afresh. It was noon and I had gone to collect some wood from the forest. Usually my 'father'  was the one who went out  to collect the wood but today I was sent for the very first time. I could feel something wanted me out of my house. Something was off about today. Anyway, I left reluctantly.

After five long hours of collecting wood, I realized it was going to be dark soon. So, I started making my way back home.  I was around six hundred yards away from home and I could feel an eerie silence surrounding my house. Suddenly I felt anxious. I could feel something was wrong, very wrong. I dropped the tree branches and started to run towards my house. 

Now I was sure that something WAS wrong. The door, it was broken. There had been a struggle. Blood was everywhere.  Without delay I started looking for my family. I found my 'parents' in the living room. They were seated on the sofa and their back was facing me. I made my way towards them and gasped. Their throats had been slit. There were stab wounds all over the body. I knew they were dead without checking for any pulse.

Suddenly my heart jumped to my sister. Where was she? How was she? Was she even alive? I could not lose her. She was my responsibility. I searched and searched but couldn't find her. 

It has been ten very long years, but I still haven't found her. I know that she is alive because her blood was't spilled that day. I know that they have my sister because I had something of their's. So her being kidnapped is all my fault.

If her family hadn't taken me in, they would have been alive today and she would've been with them. So I can never stop searching for her. I owe this to her parents.

So, that was it. Hope you all liked it. Till next time then :) 

Candles

I was reading something online when I came across a quote worth sharing.

 "A thousand candles can be lit from a single candle, and the life of that candle will not be shortened."

How true is that!

I love helping people whenever I can. Even when they don't know that it's me. Always fun. There is this secret satisfaction that you get when you know you have made somebody smile, that you are the reason they are not upset anymore. You don't have to do great things or go out of the way to help. Small things matter too. It could be as simple as picking somebody's pen or just being there for your friend when they are down. It is having a supporting role in somebody else's movie and being okay with that.

  

But when I look around myself, I see a lot of people who think helping somebody is beneath them. Or it is 'not cool'. I find that very sad. It is not like you will die if you lent a hand or something. Sheesh!

But the counter argument to this could be the fact that if you extend your hand towards someone, they always try and grab your arm. Which again is very true.

Often, you are labelled as 'meddlesome' in the first scenario and 'too aloof' in the second one. There is such a thin line between this. Then there is this whole thing about not caring what people think. Sheesh.

I am pretty sure that when humans were being manufactured they were handed a specific code of conduct that they were supposed to follow. And mine got lost somewhere!

Do you ever feel like that or am I the only one?   

P.s. If you have any questions for me please send them at ask.fm/Lyra0019 

Loving Him Dearly

The other day I started studying for my exam, law of crimes. And instead of learning a bunch of sections like I hoped to do, I ended up writing a random story. I haven't really decided the title for it or anything. But well, here it goes...



It is never easy. They say it is. But, no. Never. Each time is different, sure. But easy? Never. 
Move on. Two words. Easy to utter, difficult to follow. Every time you 'move on', you are leaving a part of yourself behind. And no matter what, you can never go back in time to get that part. 

It has been a year. 

In other people's eyes, I have done it! I have moved on. I am done being asked whether I am okay or not. So, I have a smile permanently pasted on my face for their sake but inside it is all hollow. I feel empty, numb.

He is gone. He left me and took everything of mine with him. I was so stupid! I ignored all the signs, I ignored everything and everyone for him. People warned me but I didn't listen. 

How could I listen to them?

I was living a fantasy. I was on top of the world. I was flying!! They didn't get it. They never had him. They couldn't understand the feeling. I loved him!

I had always been the careful one. I never took risks, always had my guard up. My friend brought him with her on a get together. He was adorable. It was like a breath of fresh air. I had to have him. And I paid a hefty amount to get him. He was totally worth it. Everything seemed to fall into place. I felt so comfortable and safe with him.

And then it happened. I wasn't expecting it. I wasn't ready for it. 

Today, exactly a year ago, everything was taken from me. It was evening time. Like always, I took the metro, it was very convenient. From the station I walked towards my home, thinking about him. I reached home and immediately knew something was wrong. The door to my place was ajar. Everything was totally out of place. Finally, I saw him. Everything in me died that very moment. He wasn't moving. The doctors tried everything but I was too late.

That day I lost my sweet little dog, piggy. He was my fifth pet that year.




Sooooooo... That is it! Hope you guys liked it :P

The Verdict

Yesterday on 13^th September 2013 the verdict on the Delhi Gang Rape Case was given. All four accused have been given capital punishment. They are all going to die.

Every other person that I talked to, every other facebook status that I read, every other news channel that I watched, they all said the same thing.

‘Justice has been served’.

 ‘All four of them have gotten what they deserved.’

I beg to differ.

All six of them, they gave ‘hell’ an altogether new meaning. They not only raped her. They brutalized her body with other foreign objects as well. They did unimaginable things to her, the details of which are just too horrific. They made her friend watch and tortured him as well, beating the crap out of him when he tried to help her. They threw her and her friend out of the moving bus. Hoping they’d die. They didn’t. They survived. She died a couple of days later, succumbing to her injuries while her friend survived.

Is giving them death penalty for what they did really justice? I don’t think so. I respect the Court’s decision, I really do. But I think death is simple. It is easy. It just doesn’t seem enough! They will be hanged till death. In one swift motion their lives will end. No suffering at all. It just doesn’t seem right to me. 

I wish castration was legal in India, even electrocution for that matter. I wish they could be burnt alive (Yes, I am a sadist at heart). But, damn our laws.   

I am happy that the judgement was finally passed. Hope that things will change now. Hope men will think twice before touching women now.

Loneliness

 

A quote in a book by Jodi Picoult

A couple of days back I came across this picture and I started thinking about loneliness and being alone. Why are people so afraid of being alone? Do they not like themselves? Do they not like their own company?

I don't get it. I know man(woman too) is a social animal and cannot survive in isolation. But why does being alone seem like a punishment to some?

The thing is I have always been the center of attraction among friends. Always the goof, cracking jokes(appropriate, inappropriate alike :P), making people laugh. Being random, being crazy. Get the picture?

Yet, I am never really able to connect with people more than that. I am not an emotional person and it takes a lot of time for me to bond with people. And even when I do bond there is always a feeling of loneliness. I used to be afraid of it. I craved company. But that phase is long gone.

Now, I have fallen in love with being alone. Books and music are the two things that give me an excuse to ignore people. Most of them are mean and manipulative. The toxic kind that you'd want to steer away from. But I can't really do that so I started keeping to myself. I do talk to everyone. I am very sociable. But most of the time I try to keep quiet (failing miserably of course).

Anyway, in my heart I thank these people. I thank them for making me fall in love with my own company. Making me appreciate the thing that I was missing. Now I am not afraid of me anymore. 

So try taking time out of your busy life to enjoy your company. You deserve some 'me' time. Remember you never really feel lonely when you are alone. Enjoy! 

Another random picture I came across 

Smile :)

I was going to write about the verdict of The Juvenile Justice Court. But I just don't feel like it anymore. It just makes me really sad. The girl is dead and the most brutal of those six men is going to get just three years minus eight months in some reformatory home. Is it really fair?


Hmm... I am sure everyone is outraged and all. But for now I won't write about it.


Okay. Random question. What made you smile today? Or in the past week. Like, really truly light-up-the-whole-town kind of smile. :P


Come on! If you could think of at least five to ten incidents that too in less than two minutes. Kudos to you!


For some of the unfortunate people (like me) who actually had to think for five to ten minutes. Well,  to them I just have to say.. "GET UP!! Go in front of the mirror! Make a goofy face!". I bet there will be a smile on your face threatening to break free. (If somebody catches you doing that and recommends a doctor Not my problem, okay? :P )


Problem smiling? Try this--->  Smile!!


It actually takes me a lot of time to think of good funny smiley incidents. Seems sad? Far from it. I am actually a very bubbly, enthusiastic and cheerful person. People always describe me as a lively being. And the thing is I love to make others laugh.


But when it comes to me... I kind of suck.


Anyway, just keep smiling people. Life's too short to be wasted on trivial things.

Being a girl...

I just read about the Mumbai Gang rape. How horrific!

Is there ever going to be a day when we open a newspaper and there is absolutely nothing about rape/molestation/eve teasing?

I just cannot understand how someone could do something like that. When a guy is ripping the girl’s clothes off, does he go deaf? Does he stop hearing her screams? Does he stop seeing her protests? Does he stop thinking about the consequences, about the repercussions?

How can you do such a thing?

I am a girl living in Delhi for the past nineteen years. I have grown up listening and reading about such incidents. I bet you have too. 


I have been whistled at, leered at, blown kisses at and even been flashed countless number of times. And that’s not it. I have also been groped, eve teased, stalked and what not. If you are a woman reading this you would relate to this. This is every day for us. There is a very high chance that you have gone through at least one of the things mentioned above. There is also a good chance that you have ignored such vile behavior. Only because you had a ‘what if’ in your mind.

‘What if I protest and he throws acid on my face?’

‘What if he does something to me?’

Prevention is better, right? Also, what would people say?

I have had enough. Enough. But what can I actually do? I don’t know. What I do know and I do believe is that they are all the same.

Each and every guy is the same. No matter what they tell you.

It is extremely disappointing. Living in a country where goddesses are worshiped and women treated like this.

Is being a girl my punishment?

Such things often make me wish I’d never been born. 

Music!

And I am back again!


To continue revealing a little about myself.


So one of my favorite bands is Poets of the fall.

They are just so amazing! The guy's voice makes me swoon. And the guitarist. And the drummer! <3
Gosh.

I love this band for its headbanging(sort of) music. Then comes the lyrics. Very twisted. Somehow I find their songs to be very emotional. Always make me introspect.

Couple of songs that I would recommend are 'Carnival of Rust', 'Stay' and 'The Ultimate fling'. Wait! Also, 'Cradled in Love'.

Till, next time :)

Judging & Being Judged...

Hi!!


Okay. My name is not really Lyra Pearson. It is an identity that I came up with because I, like many others suck at taking criticism. If you knew me, you'd judge my writing on the basis of my personality. So being anonymous has its perks. You become bold. You don't hesitate to share your thoughts, your feelings, your ideas.

I don't like it when people judge me. Nobody does, right? Yet, I am a very judgmental and opinionated person.


When you meet someone for the first time you form a basic understanding of them. A basic opinion. If that opinion is good enough, you don't mind getting to know them. If you don't like them in the first instant, you may avoid them.

Basically, why do first impressions last, if you are not supposed to judge a book by its cover?

This was just a tiny insight into my mind. Well, till next time! Toodles!!